BESTIES.. WHERE ARE YOU???

my life...
thought it was so colourful... but now. i realize...
at school, im just alone..
friends? of course i have. a lot..
how about bestfriends??
im still loking for it...
i don't know where is she.. im still searching n searching..
God, where is my bestie is??
Deep inside my heart, i have no trusted with a best friends whom people talk..
i have a lot of experience abt loosing a bestfriends..
just disappear..
i dk they all disappear bcos of me or nope...
im just........................
so stressful with this problem.............
why??
i dk.........
i just want a bestfriend....
that always cares with me........
i just want a bestfriend....
that always stand besides me......
i just want a bestfriend....
that always understands what i want to.....
i just want a bestfriend....
that always shed my tears........
i just want a bestfriend....
that always cries in my shoulder........
i just want a bestfriend....
that always makes me smile..........

WHERE ARE YOU??

i Love

I just learnt something

gw baru saja belajar hal baru.
pengalaman berharga yang telah sukses menambah uban.
salah satu hukum alam yg telah terbukti.

manusia itu ga bisa cuma mau diberi, tapi ga mau memberi
manusia itu ga bisa mau dicintai tapi ga mau mencintai
manusia itu ga bisa mau ditolong tapi ga mau ditolong

.bener2 pelajaran yg membuat gw membuka mata.
.mungkin kalian pikir sepele dan biasa.
.tapi, hal ini sangat berarti buat gw sekarang.
.smoga gw ga cuma blajar teori.
.smoga gw bisa menjalani dengan prakteknya.
SMOGA
AMIN

THANKS TO MY FRIEND THAT MAKE ME REALIZE

My hopeS

I want to m0ve to be a better oNe.
Im tired w my past life.
My life w0n't be betTer if i d0n't do s0meacts fr0m n0w oN.
I must love my life, resPect my m0m betTer n cAre my litTle sister m0re
i have to be a diliGent stUdEnt at my sch0ol.
I must be a top 3rd at my clasS.
I will pRay often
n i must m0re graceful with my lifE n0w.
I have to love my big families m0re.
They always cAre,supPort,n love me.
I want to have new besties n i want to keEp in c0ntaCt w my besties.
I will try to sell s0mething for m0re m0ney.
I want 2 buy s0mething w my own m0ney.
I want to be a kind girl.
N evry0ne who kn0w me will say aBt me "she's warm,nice,n sweEt"
i must work hard for these.

DIET

Okay.. my body is fatter in this last months...
I have to do some DIET...
really hate these fat...
n my cheeksssssssss chubbieerrr.....
i eat rice only a little n do a lot of exercises...
it really helps!!!

luckily,, kadang entah kenapa, gw sulit skali menahan amarah??
tapi,, kl smua udah keluar,, ga nyampe 5 menit gw ktawa2 lagii..
bukannya ga serius marahnya,,
hanya saja,, gw terlalu pemaaf...............
tapi kalo gw tahan2...
malah nantinya meletus kaayyaaa anak krakatau....
so, u must understand when i am angry...

live in uneasy life

hal pertama yg gw alamin baru2 ini...
sahabat: gw ga percaya namanya sahabat...
entah kenapa..
gw cuma punya teman baik slama ini...
hidup gw tetep seru2 ajah...
gw merasa belum percaya ajah sama namanya sahabat...
mungkinkah dihidup singkat ini gw punya sahabat??
i don't know..
still searching.....